how can an innocent man become a bad man

a man born innocent and clean
he could become a good man
he could become a bad man
but how can an innocent man become a bad man?
who is guilty?
the fellows?
the maker?
himself?

in the world of millions fellows
all were once innocent and clean
how possible for the perfect cleanness to become contaminated?
when was the first dirt took place?

and for what reasons shall the good maker introduce the badness to his invention?
and for what purposes it would serve?
and from his perfection why such flaw would happened?
or he is indeed not perfect
for if his creation is not perfect
isn't the maker responsible for that?
and if he can't correct it
would he be guilty?

or if he is indeed perfect
and the good and the bad are meant to mixed in harmony
that the badness is indeed compulsory for the existence of the goodness
why badness is considered bad though?

after all
are we being created?
or are we born free out of nothingness?
and how come nothingness is the origin of everything?

it first came to your sight as a golden light
shimmering in the far distance
above from the sky
it is the land of silence
it is the land of lifeless
but of strangely warmth
the warmth you have never felt
the warmth you have never seen
the mystic warmth that lure you into the deepest depth of the icy cave

you can't stop denying
you can't stop believing it could be real
the unreal exists only in your dream
the fantasy is before your eyes

you can't describe
you can't express
you feel useless
you feel weak

the night comforts you
escort you through the dark forest
the clear clean night above
pure and light
you can't escape
you can't deny

you touch it with your heart
you absorb it with your sight
you saw yourself doubtful
you feel confused
you are the victim of your own fantasy

it is all fake
it is all lie
you don't trust it for half a second
you love perfection
you adore the imperfection within

once you thought you saw eternal happiness
now you are in the rotten dessert
you came with bare hands
you now left with a bare bag of bones